Well, this is my first journal entry.

I'm not sure what to say, I don't feel like getting too personal with the internet. Funny enough, the internet is forever, but I want to get myself out there.

I've been really socially active as of late. THis past year I've been trying to join in on everything I possibly can. I've joined many singing groups like VYOC, Vocal Ensembles, and even Allstates which is actually going on right now. And because I've done this, you might even see me around in such things like the front page of the news last week, or random places on the internet. I've got ten pages to my name! Woo!

At the same time, I've been trying to make friends with people.

This is weird, because I've never done it before. I've never had the nerve to really go up to people and start chatting away, and I'm surprised just how easy it is to make friends.

As for the arts, I've just finished a huge texture tree project that I'm really proud of, and I'm drawing right now actually.


On the flip side, I have a lot of things not to be happy about. I can't really find connections with my friends lately. It's slightly like I'm loosing my grasp on people, or they really don't care all that much. I feel like I'm always constantly right at the edge looking at that black pit I somehow clawed my way out of years ago.

Some of my closest friends for years are much farther away from me then they used to, and I can't help but feel like they are moving even farther.. With knee surgery on june 12th, I fear I might be alone for the summer.

SO I guess my life is just kind of neutral. I'm really not happy or upset. I wish my mother would stop yelling at me soo much though. For the summer, I'm beginning a human body study on the female form, so I need models! I already have two friends of mine who are willing to pose for me, but variety is good I suppose. Sorry I haven't posted anything though. my scanner hates me a little.